Unpublished letters of truth -1

Dearest soul,

After a long time of stagnancy..here I am.

But guess what,I am not what I used to be as some of myself have been demolished and some rebuilt. But I presume that's the beauty of moving with the passing time in its direction,you lose some you gain some.

As it is for me..well ,i have this thing called detriment of doubt where you want all when you know you can only hold a fistful that too with the evergreen fear of being either correct or incorrect about it.

The coin has 2 sides which makes it easier to choose but what do we do when the coin stands still in between leaving you hanging for dear life, perplexed in a situation where you are to decide. And you can't, especially when you are me!!

I'll explain it better,stay with me on this..

If ,in a flip of a coin we are offered the choice between tails and heads where the coin is the course of our life ,the two sides being the outcomes of our choices or choices themselves and the coin being of god's grace. Where does this leave the room for us to greedily choose both the sides?

when the coin holder itself offers either,without any supplementary option of opting for both. The need to hold both (choices)to ourselves is inevitable, though you don't mix them both or deport them from their individual positions. Still the undeniable gravity,our heart pulls to both when you know you can only hold the Towers of gold which are still too little,These hands could hold the world but it'll never be enough.

The con of detrimental doubts is what makes the beautifully webbed intricacy which rather interests me in how it leaves us with the suspense of what could have been the end of the unchosen choice or the un-walked path. And I guess we all are somewhere deep inside living with the thrill of imagining an unlived life somewhere,with someone doing something and feeling a certain way which we could have only if we'd have Chosen the left way of light.

You love both dearly if not equally but then at the Sundown we both are the same people, living a life that we think we planned for ourselves and in a Mirage of being unbothered with the idea of a world we haven't explored because of the boundaries of our choices.

Choices are hard mi amigos,they demolish some things and rebuild some things.

That's all for now, until we write again.

Love

Eternally yours

Me.