Humans 101 : feelings and people

 Namaskaaram,

Here I am again with yet another stack of ungaurded and unsorted feelings for once over thoughts..i know, i know this one is a shocker..me?feelings? people? Doesn't really add up ..but today it does and I'll walk you through the whole situation.

I was at the bottom of the ocean..skeptically hopeful of finding people of any sort to be clear.and neither did I had the need to ..but you know what they say,what you seek is seeking you.and they were seeking me..it was like I was the magnet to their iron, the Keats to their Shelly and the apple to their eyes( that might just be a little too much but atishyokti is my middle name,who am I if not over the top!)

Sometimes you meet people for no specific reason but many,and without asking they acquire the position of 'importance'in your life.. atleast for me it was unwanted.

Meeting them was so unexpected and warm like nothing before,i know i said this for people prior to them and I don't know if I will repeat it for someone else or not,I am hoping for the latter..but in the moment they are and will be the saviour to my damsel ,the goons to my Stalker,the ice to my woes, sunset to my hard days and starry nights to my cloudy days.

I keep repeating that we might be estranged and apart after a time or maybe not..but to put to words of what exactly I instill in the moment I'd like to play the song which I was singing in my head when I saw them for the first time,sit in a well lit corner and write..write till my heart is so full that my eyes can't see no more, think..untill my head is absolutely light of all that is not them,speak..untill my ears can hear my heartbeat,laugh.. untill my face wrinkles and feel ..untill I can't breathe. so, here is me speaking my heart for the first and last time on this ...no I am not in love with someone,i am love with some people ,people I am never getting over ,people who somehow are 'important' for me without me having any expectation to receive the same,people that I call my friends.people with whom I am never getting older just wiser..people I am ready to share a lifetime with..people I want jump in the puddles with people I want to eat ice creams with people I want to dance with till there is a single ounce of strength in me ..people I want to play dum charades with ..people I want to go on countless food dates with ..people I want irritate with my writings..people I want to immortalize in my poetry and people with whom I want to scream at the top of my lungs that I am completely okay in my skin ,and the best part is that I don't even care if they feel the same or not it is  my our story and I  we are just at the beginning of it.

Yours eternally.

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And till the last day of life..